|What has happened to me.|
When did I become so numb, bestial and fearless like I will never ever be able to feel any emotion.
Anyway I am not afraid of anything, even own death, loss of hardly build career etc., like my life was fully empty and not wealthly like it seems to be.
I remember the day when I fell in love with someone who left in my heart only scars.
Anyway I still always be willing to do everything possible to get her back for fulfilling dreams which maybe only I used to have.
In the end of our hand in hands through world moving I remember days I fealed true fear of loosing her, loosing child which we should have together and the day which destroyed my world, feelings, family and even myself.
It tooks years to get up back from the bottom of daily depression which almost got me to my own grave.
But even nowadays when I am strong and powerfull, I know that I am dead anyway even with breathing and closing eyes in a bed instead of a grave.
What has gone wrong and why I can't get over it?!
Why I won't be happy as I was?!